2009 Here I come Baby!

Only barely 6 hrs before the year 2009 comes wading its way to all of us. A feeling of hope and anticipation resides the heart. People are filled with the inspiration to start fresh and new. Music and fireworks everywhere. There is always something in the atmosphere when it comes to New Year. We all want to change for the better. People started making resolutions and aspirations. Planning ahead and making dreams come true. We all wish for a better luck and money. Life is hard now. Earning a living is like climbing up a rocky steep mountain with the icy wind blowing above you.

As for me, I am going to live life as I always did.. but this time with a twist. Not that it makes any difference except that I will be more closer to myself. I am going to think of ways to liven up my life. I will try some hobbies. I will get less emotional. I will be myself and not entertain ill thoughts. There are so much more to do. Life starts now even before so... Just Live It.

Have a Happy and Hopeful New Year! Praying for a more peaceful world. mwah!

reveal

Sometimes it is hard to reveal your feelings because you are afraid of being let down. You are afraid of not being accepted. And when you did, the worse happens.

letting it out

It hurts so much to know that after some months of being together... he still does not know you.
It hurts when you feel that you have been trying to give it all and yet he still does not recognize.

Love hurts...so much that tears will just flow...

Sunset

There is something about the sun that makes me want to start the day. It refreshes me. Its light gives me strength. Most of all it gives me hope. I also love the sunset. It tells me to rest after a hard day of work. It calms and soothes me. It brings peace to my soul. However, the sunset makes me sad too. It brings back memories. I tend to think a lot of things... family feud, lost friends, future, detachment, love, work... leaving me lifeless.. Sometimes I feel like crying for no reason at all.

I guess that is the beauty of being a human. You feel the pain and joy in everything. Feelings are raw. Often times, we think too much. Sometimes we just want to scream. But the majesty of it is that we wake up each morning finding ourselves alive in this world.. feeling the sun warming our skin... simple bliss of being alive and just experience the thrill of what we call Life.

Welcoming 2009 with Hope

Everyday is an opportunity to change for the better. Sometimes, the lack of motivation and inspiration to do so make us grow weary to continue what has started. But still, the willingness to change is there.

For the coming of 2009, i want to start fresh once again. The year 2008 has been filled with hope and despair, excitement and weariness, motivation and frustration...

Highlights of 2008

1. Starting my real job in one of the best companies in the world.

2. Accepting the real deal of working and dealing with clients.

3. Waking up early, commuting under the heat, going home late.

4. The routine of my everyday life continues

5. The feeling of insanity.. of being out of place..of not being fulfilled

6. The feeling of wanting-to-get-out-of-here

7. Becoming the slave of work

8. Forgetting my friends and loved ones

9. Found someone

10. Awards; economic crisis; no salary increase; hard life

And so my 2008 was filled with the work to lived and the work to be enslaved. There are too much tears in here. Happiness is always temporary. The wanting to break free is there but nothing really happen. Confuse on where to go. Weak.

But each time I woke up and see the sun, I smile. Whenever the air brushes my skin and tangles my hair, I feel peace. Whenever I see my loved ones I feel like my day is going to be just fine. Whenever I hear music, I sing. Whenever I see you, I feel inspired. I guess there is still Hope for me.

I want my 2009 to be filled with hope.

1. Just live.

2. Say No. Be myself.

3. Dream and let it come true.

4. Be a slave to prayer.

5. Work should be a something to do when you are bored.

6. Say Hi to friends and loved ones.

7. Eat and drink healthily and be merry.

8. Read, read, read! Write!

9. Let God be the center in my life.

10. Give my best always!

Have faith and hope. Everything is going to be the way we want it. Just live Life. ;)

All is Temporary

I realized that we must not hold on to our loved ones so much. They don't belong to us but God's.

Learn to let go

Shed a tear and miss them but not always...

Be thankful for the happy times

Don't think too much of sad times

Pray for strength

In the end we are going to see each other again... in Paradise where there is no end.

A Prayer.

Here is one of the best prayer I have read.

Heavenly Father, Help us remember that the jerk who cut us off in traffic last night is a single mother who worked nine hours that day and is rushing home to cook dinner, help with homework, do the laundry and spend a few precious moments with her children.

Help us to remember that the pierced, tattooed, disinterested young man who can't make change correctly is a worried 19-year-old college student, balancing his apprehension over final exams with his fear of not getting his student loans for next semester.

Remind us, Lord, that the scary looking bum, begging for money in the same spot every day (who really ought to get a job!) is a slave to addictions that we can only imagine in our worst nightmares .

Help us to remember that the old couple walking annoyingly slow through the store aisles and blocking our shopping progress are savoring this moment, knowing that, based on the biopsy report she got back last week, this will be the last year that they go shopping together.

Heavenly Father, remind us each day that, of all the gifts you give us, the greatest gift is love. It is not enough to share that love with those we hold dear. Open our hearts not to just those who are close to us, but to all humanity. Let us be slow to judge and quick to forgive, show patience, empathy and love. Working for God on earth doesn't pay much......but His retirement plan is out of this world..